I Can’t Keep It All Together

I Didn’t Make A Mistake

People say I’ve made a mistake going back to the love of my life after last week… I didn’t and I know that. The mistake I made was thinking I could be without her.

Drinking Away My Feelings

Some people eat their feelings…  Some get drunk… I seem to drink mine away with Red Bull

It’s All Your Fault

Triangle Shirt Factory

Looking up on my YouTube subscriptions a video popped up. It was a former teacher from my high school, Trevor Leonard. His stage band name is Triangle Shirt Factory, and about a year ago his album “Widening” came out. Now I loved the album, but my favourite song of his, “Hello” wasn’t on it. There’s a whole story behind that.

But he just recently posted a video of my favourite song from the album, “Sidewalks (A Newtown Winter Memory)” So I’m featuring him on my blog. I’m hoping he puts up a video of “Hello” soon, but for now here’s “Sidewalks.”

Triangle Shirt Factory- Sidewalks (A Newtown Winter Memory)

Apologies and a Question

I’m sorry for not posting in almost 4 months.  Much has happened, much has transpired, but no inspiration. So for the lack of posting, I apologize.

 

Now on to the more pressing issue. My sister insists that the Jonas Brothers are more popular and are all around better than the Muppets. I heartedly disagree. So I’m taking this to the people. Use the poll at the bottom to vote and choose which you think is better. To help you choose I give you one Jonas Brothers video and one Muppets video…

The Need for a Great Future

How do I comfort the one I love, who is 150 miles away? It’s not easy when they close themselves off. I am a person who needs to talk things out out so I don’t quite understand this. But I’m also a person who when I see a person in emotional trouble I want to help because I worry. So really I just want to be with my love, hold her close and tell her everything is going to be okay.

I can’t change the past, but only make the future better. This is a plea to anyone that would help, get my love to DC for good so I can make our future together great.

Guest Post by Jenn: Random Thoughts with Meaning

Lets first begin with introductions.  I am Jenn.  I am Robert’s current girlfriend and I felt that I had a few things that I wanted to say to everyone. One of the things that has come to my attention is that Robert is the type of person you where within the first few minutes of knowing him you know exactly what his personality is.  He is very loving, and he loves to cuddle as well as the fact that he wants to know that you are always there and wants to feel your touch and know that you need him as much as he needs you.  This is very clear to see as soon as you start dating him.  What I can’t understand is why someone would continue to lead him on for two or so months before making up some ridiculously lame excuse to break up with him…

A Mental Vacation

I first of all want to apologize for the writers block lately… I can’t help that. On a better note, I just had the best 24 hours in a long time. My girlfriend, Jenn, came down and visited. It’s been rough lately with her, lots of things going on, causing delays in her moving to DC. I hadn’t seen her for two weeks almost and was getting frustrated. Well she hopped on a train yesterday and came down.

The Fat Lady Has Sung

I made a visit to AU’s campus yesterday to move my stuff in. I had an ephiphany while I was there. My campus is 60% girls, 40% guys, with 30 or so percent of the guys being gay. The numbers are in my favour. Not to mention I have a girlfriend now, who is moving down to DC next week or so. So the ephiphany was: I shouldn’t have lamated over Jenn for so long.

I was talking to my friend the other night, she told me a story about her friend from high school who was engaged. The dude in the relationship was whipped. She treated him like shit, and he kept coming back for more. That was me. I could have had so much better than what I had. And it looks now that I’ll get it. There are a million different chances out there, and I was focused on one that didn’t give me the respect I deserved. So it took all summer, lots of pain, some realization, my friends trying to talk to a brick wall, but it’s over. Fuck her.

I was going to send a card to her on her birthday, but I realize now: what would that have done? Made me feel worse because I was still worrying about something that I could never have again, that really, in retrospect, wasn’t that great. The potential for much more is now present in my life because I can move on.